9.4.99

I cleaned today like never before in this house. Cleaned the grime of tenants past from the floors of the bathroom and the bedroom. Washed the bathroom walls of steam residue. Removed a few of Joan's things from my room and the bathroom medicine chest to make the spaces more mine. Settling in more deeply now. Organized drawers, trying to tidy up piles of papers and books and miscellany that won't fit easily into any place for putting things. I'm delighted to have clean floors, and corners uncluttered by cobwebs and banks of hair. Insect carcasses dangled from the ceiling or clumped on the floor. My hair is inescapable, woven into baskets and rugs and drainpipes. I told Dave about it on the phone and he said I should be made to sleep outside. I organized my files, threw away ancient magazines. Organized the big Chinese box that holds all of my barrettes and jewelry. All the dishes are washed too and the plants properly watered. Now there is only the desk and more books to tidy. Tomorrow or the next day I will sweep the crumbs of toast and chocolate covered grahams from under the keyboard. The weather was forecasted hot and sunny but it didn't come true until late afternoon when I was deep into cleaning. When the sun was golden orange against the red walls and the blue door, I felt ready for a bike ride. Already too late and I had to tell myself I'll go tomorrow. I don't know if I will. There is more work I need to do that I haven't been doing...I don't know what I've been doing, reading I suppose. Lying in bed sleeping and not feeling well. Not that I have been having trouble sleeping, but painful waking. Headaches and a bit of dizziness. I think it may be some kind of tension in my shoulders that I'm not stretching out properly. I don't think I'm drinking enough water. Maybe low blood sugar as well: I usually feel better after eating breakfast. Tonight there is comfort in a neat and tidy space. I'm looking forward to waking well.

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