I stood in the shower for a long time today. I didn't need a shower, but wanted to steep chilled skin.

I was remembering when my grandma told me, without regret or malice, that she was at the end of her life, and I was just beginning mine. ... Remember what that guy in the Thin Red Line says about hoping to face death as courageously as his mother did? Well, that moment with gma was a moment of her courage that stays with me, and I wonder how and if I will ever have such grace.